There is a radio commercial that parodies those familiar evenings of insomnia. The narrator describes a scene of a person staring at his ceiling, late at night, and unable to sleep. “You’re thinking, aren’t you? Nothing good comes from thinking this late. You’re worried about something!”
So true! I do not usually have trouble falling asleep at night. Within 10 minutes of my head resting upon my pillow, I am usually fast asleep. However, every few months, there is an evening when I cannot sleep. Invariably it is because I am thinking about something. I attempt to read or think of something incredibly dull and boring. I repent and review the events of the day, whether there was some sin that I committed either by omission or commision. I pray, asking God to give me rest. Unfortunately, many times, there is no answer and I remain awake until sleep finally intervenes from sheer exhaustion.
On that night the king could not sleep. And he gave orders to bring the book of memorable deeds, the chronicles, and they were read before the king. And it was found written how Mordecai had told about Bigthana and Teresh, two of the king’s eunuchs, who guarded the threshold, and who had sought to lay hands on King Ahasuerus.
Esther 6:1-2 (ESV)
This passage from the Book of Esther documents a similar sleepless evening for King Ahasuerus of Persia. His solution was similar to most of us, he decided to read something pedantic and boring, the chronicles of the kingdom. However, in this instance, it was God’s providential hand at work. He directed the king’s attention to an entry that documented Mordecai’s noble deed in exposing an assassination plot against him. To the king’s surprise, Mordecai was never rewarded and the king wanted to correct this oversight. Mordecai was a Jew and an official in the king’s court and, unbeknownst to the king, he was the uncle of his wife, Esther, the Queen. The two expose the plot of Haman, another high ranking official in the King’s court, who hated all the Jews and tricked the King into signing an edict that eliminated all Jews. Until that moment, the King did not realize he signed the death warrant for his own wife! Haman was hanged and Mordecai was promoted to second in power to the King. All this because of a sleepless night!
Intrigue, deception, betrayal! While my sleepless nights may not lead to as dramatic a revelation or outcome as the Book of Esther, I definitely want to be prepared to listen if God is speaking to me during these insomniac episodes!
I am thinking. Here I am! Teach me, Lord!
Love and trust the Lord; seek His will in your life.