A surgeon colleague of mine recently shared the disturbing news that he was diagnosed with prostate cancer. He discussed the prognosis and treatment with numerous experts and decided that he would not opt for immediate surgery, but instead, follow the serological or blood markers of the cancer. If there was a change and elevation in this marker, this was presumptive evidence that the cancer was advancing and surgery would be needed.
I admired the courage of my colleague as he dealt with his cancer diagnosis. His decision to delay immediate treatment of his prostate cancer was well-supported in the medical literature and by his urological peers. Yet, I was unsettled by his decision. Everyone is wired differently, with different thresholds for what they would accept for their treatment. For myself, I cannot accept such an option. I would literally be sitting on a time bomb. Its presence would gnaw on my soul, occupying my daily thoughts and influencing many of my daily decisions. I would choose to have the cancer removed, immediately.
How ironic that I cannot tolerate a diagnosis of cancer within me yet, I will still tolerate many sins and excesses in my life. I will suffer through the pain and travails of a radical surgery, yet, I will still tolerate the soul killing and destructive effects of unconfessed sins, a far more destructive and deadly disease. How hypocritical!
Whoever conceals his transgressions will not prosper, but he who confesses and forsakes them will obtain mercy.
Proverbs 28:13 (ESV)
I ignore, deny, and conceal my sins. These sins, which erode and destroy my very soul, I continue to tolerate, at the expense of my very existence. What hope do I have?
Thanks be to God that He has given me and all of mankind His Son, Jesus Christ, as the Redeemer of our sins. If we confess and repent of my sins and accept Jesus Christ as our Lord and Savior, He is faithful and just to forgive us of our sins. In my life, the ticking time bomb of my sins has been defused and I can begin to live the life that God created me to live.
Love and trust the Lord; seek His will in your life.