Many years ago, I kept a handwritten prayer journal. As the years passed, that journal eventually became digital, but one thing slowly changed along the way. I stopped calling it my “Prayer Journal.” Instead, I renamed it “Counting My Blessings.”

At the time, I remember thinking that if I truly believed God was sovereign, then I had to trust Him not only for the obvious blessings, but also for the painful and confusing moments that did not feel like blessings at all. That belief was tested during a severe financial crisis several years ago.

At the time, I could not see anything good in it. I questioned my decisions. I questioned whether I had somehow misunderstood God’s direction for my life despite sincerely praying for wisdom and guidance through every step. I remember wondering how God could allow something like this after so much prayer.

Could I honestly continue calling the journal Counting My Blessings when I no longer felt blessed? For a long time, I saw only loss. But years later, I began to understand something I could not see at the time. That financial collapse had quietly redirected my life in ways I never could have anticipated. Opportunities eventually opened that would never have existed had that earlier loss not occurred. Ironically, what once appeared devastating became part of the foundation for even greater future blessings.

Still, looking back now, I think the greater lesson was not financial. The greater lesson was learning that God’s sovereignty does not depend upon my ability to understand what He is doing.

Faith is easy when life makes sense. Trust begins when it does not. Sometimes God’s providence is only recognized in reverse. Perhaps that is why Scripture says:

And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.
Romans 8:28 (ESV)

Not all things are good. But God remains good through all things. Even now, I still continue writing in Counting My Blessings. Some entries are filled with gratitude. Others are written through uncertainty, prayer, fear, or waiting. But over time, I have learned that God’s faithfulness is not measured by whether I immediately understand His plans.

It is measured by His unchanging character.

Love and trust in the Lord; seek His will in your life.

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