I Could Not Do That! (Psalms 31:5)

Garlands of fragrant flowers adorned the stately church as the guests were greeted and slowly ushered in. At the front, next to the altar, the handsome visage of the man we were honoring was prominently displayed. It was our godfather who had passed away the previous week. Our family had flown across the country to be reunited with his family and honor this man and brother in Jesus Christ. 

As we entered, we were greeted by his wife and children. His daughter is very close to my wife who first met her when she was still in high school. We saw each other several times over the ensuing years and she maintained a close relationship with my wife. An accomplished singer, she has gifted us with her voice, singing at both our wedding ceremony and the reception. As I sat down, I wondered if she would be able to sing at her father’s service, no doubt overcome with grief. After a brief introduction by the pastor, she approached the altar, turned and bravely faced all of us. Her tribute was the acapella version of “The Lord’s Prayer”. Her mellifluous voice filled the hall, elevating our spirits, and riveting our attention. I marveled at her composure as she flawlessly performed it. Our teary eyes were in stark contrast to her clear and strong ones that lovingly embraced all of us and looked upward to her Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, who was now comforting her father. I was inspired by the strength of her faith.

Before my father passed away, he requested that I play a list of his favorite songs on solo guitar.  However, I knew I would be overcome with emotion if I had to perform at the actual ceremony, so I pre-recorded the songs so that I would not have to perform it live. I did not have the strength of faith and poise of my godfather’s daughter. I could not do that!

Recently, a good friend of mine texted me an unusual question. He was preparing a song list and wondered if there was a song that best described him or our relationship. Admittedly, that question caught me off guard. Dozens of songs flitted through my mind but I kept returning to one. It is a song written and performed by Christian singer, Lauren Daigle. The words are deeply personal and each time I sing it, I choke up.

Lauren Daigle Performing Trust In You

I sang this song, “Trust In You,” many times when I used to lead worship at church, but only exceptionally was I able to complete the song without tearing up or haltingly stumble over the lyrics. I shared this song with my friend because its powerful lyrics reminded me of my frequent inability to trust God. For our relationship, I confessed to him that I would like nothing more than for him than to walk with God and trust Him at all times, desirous for him to avoid the many potholes that I have encountered. I shed tears when I sing this song because I realize how my frequent lapses of faith have caused me to take my eyes off of my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. 

But I have trusted in Thy mercy; my heart shall rejoice in Thy salvation.

Psalms 31:5 (21st Century King James Version)

I cannot do it because I am attempting to do it alone. I take my eyes off of my Lord and Savior during stressful times. I need Jesus Christ, every moment of my life. 

Love and trust the Lord; seek His will in your life.

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