A former resident called me the other day. He was dealing with a complicated patient and deliberating over several rare diseases. “Dr. S! You’re going to yell at me!”
I laughed. “Why would I yell at you?”
“Because I’m forgetting the things you taught me. What tests should I order to rule out this disease?”
We both laughed. “No worries. You have enough things to think about, caring for your patients. I’m your consultant. It’s my job to order the correct tests to confirm the diagnosis!”
As a former resident, we were now collaborators, equal colleagues. Yet, it was still difficult for him to completely supplant the roles we once had, that of teacher and student. A superb dermatologist, he understandably did not want to disappoint me.
I empathize with my resident’s embarrassment. I feel a similar reticence to consult former professors for fear of exposing my ignorance. What about God? My Heavenly Father created me, nurtured and cared for me for over half a century. Am I embarrassed when I have failed Him, when I sin against Him, giving in to temptations? Most definitely.
There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.
Romans 8:1 (ESV)
If I were left to wallow in my own self-pity, I would continue down a slippery slope of despair and depression. By my efforts, I am unable to conquer the guilt and sorrow I experience when I sin against God. Thanks be to God that He does not leave nor forsake me. Through the redemptive power of faith in Jesus Christ, He has forgiven me of my sins and washed me clean of the guilt. He continues to sanctify me so that I can become more like Him.
Will God yell at me when I fail?
No. He died for me so I can live.
All praise to the Living God!
Love and trust the Lord; seek His will in your life.